cHyi's di@Ry: July 2009

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Life is so fragile

Guess what? I'm still in Malaysia now. Supposed to go to leave Msia on last sat night. We packed everything. had farewell and so on but then suddenly received a news from mum saying that grandpa is in ICU and he was in very dangerous state. Everyone rushed back to visit him but mum asked me to stay in KL, just delayed my flight and see what's going on. Doctor asked them to prepare for everything. Everyone cried.

Sunday afternoon, followed my bro and sis to KLIA to fetch my Taiwan uncle then straight back to Batu Pahat. On our way, Cat received a sms from Ginger saying that grandpa suddenly requested Coke and they suspected that grandpa just wanted to wait for my Taiwan uncle. When I saw that, my tears rolled down without control. I was nervous, I guess that was because I had never face death, especially to my close family.

That day, there was another old man lying in ICU and I saw the whole 'procedure' of him to pass away. I dont know him, but I was struggling. I saw his family members rushed into ICU, they cried, they tried to wake him up but in the end, they asked him to go without worries. Eventually, he closed his eyes and they walked out with a numb look from the ICU. Some were still crying, some fell onto the chairs and some hugged together.

Back to my grandpa, I saw him and I tried to remember all of his expressions. My bro asked him to recover so he could bring him to Bak Kut Teh. Baby Zoe asked grandpa not to sleep because she still wants to take bath at his house. I was afraid that that might be the last time I saw him. He looked pale but he tried to talk. And i remembered everything he said. Grandma was sitting beside him, holding his hand. They were married for 62 years and he might leave her very soon.

That night, I thought a lot. It's the first time I was so close to the word 'death'. Life is unpredictable, yet so fragile.